Confusion ruled all through

If you are born in family numero uno in a small town, your life follows a set pattern. People start looking up to you expectantly irrespective of fact whether you have that caliber to carry on the family tradition or not.
I became bondage of that situation. By the time I could understand myself, I was forced to live a life which actually was not intended. I jumped from one school to another during till i reached college. I was spotted then and there, always, as a family member of a celebrity. This only added to my woes.
I am talking about early 60s. During that period, situations were different, values were treated as most important thing in life. Teachers were treated at par with the God. It is not that I am planning to defame the teachers. I had some teachers who looked like God to me. But, also, I met few teachers who were blot on the face of that community.
I was sexually abused by one such teacher who was a frequent visitor to our home and my grandfather gave him that job, when I was in class four. How old was I .......only 9 or 10!!!! that was the time, remember, when teachers were worshiped as God walking on the roads. More over, even in my family, there were many teachers. Hence, nobody could have believed me. I was ashamed as I was afraid because even in that age I could realise that whatever has happened to was something shameful. I could not dare tell it anyone in my family.
I, for the first time, told about my traumatic childhood to my eldest sister who is more like my mother, when I was 53. I spent my life bearing this pain.
It was not a stray incident in my life nor I was the only victim of our teachers' lust. One of such teachers was, even, became MLC as he was a bigwig in Teacher's Union. Perhaps, everybody in our school knew about the teacher. But none had courage to speak openly against him.
I know, it still continues. I know students, still, are afraid to come out and complaint against such teachers. Unfortunately, students do not have access to counselors in schools even today.
I wish, childhood is spared of such trauma which I passed through.